154 days since my life changed forever.
154 days since my last good night of sleep.
154 days since my heart melted and I understood what real love is.
154 days since Joshua came into our lives ... 154 wonderful days it has been.
Motherhood is quite the journey. I'm exhausted, yet exhilarated. Challenged, yet overjoyed. Frustrated, yet forever grateful.
God sure knew what He was doing. For every spit up, there's 15 smiles. For every poopy blow out, there's 10 minutes of giggles and glee. For every tear, there's warm, contented sighs of love. For every moment of "Why the heck is he acting like this?!", there's dozens of silly faces, new discoveries and funny noises.
This is the most refining process I've ever been through. The independence of adolescence was one thing. The self discovery of college was another. The selfless reform of marriage was a doozy .... but nothing, I repeat nothing compares to the pride-breaking, selfishness-shedding, plan-deterring journey of motherhood.
154 days of Joshua has been 154 days of intense molding of Mommy. And I'm guessing there's lots 'n' lots more to come.
Good thing God blessed me with an adorable son who lights up my life! He makes this all worthwhile.